Current mood:

embarrassed

The fact I am still single means little.
I have a chip on my shoulder. I'm getting fed up of friends of mine, people at work and even my own parents questioning me just because I can't and won't get a girlfriend. And I'm so ticked off at being teased about it that I want to make it known.

I am 21 years old yet some people just think that these days it is unusual for a man my age to NOT be actively seeking a serious relationship. Last year some close friends tried to set me up with a girl I did not have the hots for. It didn't matter whether she had a few things in common with me or not, but I didn't want to have anyone thrust upon me, picked by someone else. Even my own mum and dad are kind of pressuring me a little bit, and this makes me feel uncomfortable.

But in light of this, and also the fact that I involve myself in furry fandom (which has a large gay following), some people are now making suggestive remarks about my sexuality. Let's make one thing perfectly clear. I may not have had a girlfriend, ever, but I am not gay. I am not particularly bisexual either. Yes I do watch artists who draw only male characters, but over the years I have come to understand that furry fandom fantasies and artwork is very different from real life. I only want to chase women. I am shy, yes, and I do not like labelling things, but what is wrong with that. And talking about this sort of thing embarasses me a lot.

The main reason I don't have a girlfriend and have not been actively seeking one is perfectly obvious. I have enough commitments to make just now; I study in university full time, I have a part-time job, I play in an alternative rock band and I like drawing things. The university course I have has mostly guys in the class and I don't have any interest in the girls in that class, nor the girls at work. Maybe the fact I am too shy is the thing, but maybe the fact that I am just too busy right now is also to be taken into account. Most of my friends are still single and that should tell any doubters something.

So there, I don't want to hear anymore silly insinuations or accusations about my personal life just because I haven't pulled anyone. What's the rush?